I believe in the axiom “do unto others as you would have done to you”. I have not always lived that way, but as I have matured I have realized how much of that saying truly resonates within me.
Many people that this phrase with bitterness, and I when I was younger and much more immature I probably did as well. But now, having raised two children to adulthood and having taken on the responsibility of helping others find their way to their own spirituality I recognize how so many of my actions stem from this belief.
I hear multiple times monthly how different I am, how I should charge more, or how I should target specific persons and personalities so I can make “more”. I am not quite sure, really, what that “more” is. For some I am sure it is money. Others again, I am sure, mean fame or fortune. While monetary abundance is helpful, my “more” really has little to do with money and everything to do with treating people like I would prefer to be treated.
When I first started my spiritual path, I had a wonderful teacher. She was everything I needed and she helped me, in many ways, discover myself and aspects of myself I never would have believed existed before I began this work.
She was generous with her discernment, praise, and love and caring and unstinting with the time she would spend with me when I needed wisdom, help, or just a shoulder to cry upon. I still appreciate all that she helped me learn and I hope that I, in turn, am able to share the same with my students and clientele without demanding payment for every word that drops out of my mouth or every text message I return.
As I look around my “environment”, my world I call the metaphysical community, I see people living in fear. Fear of lack. Fear of reprisal. Fear of this or that. But it all comes down to one thing alone – fear.
Trust in the Divine is hard. It takes a lot of work and sometimes each of us falls on our ass and has to pull ourselves back up, dust off, and start over. But Trust in the Divine is essential as an energy worker, as a spiritual mentor, and as a human being following her Path. Without Trust in the Divine I would not be able to help others, I would not be able to help my children, and I would not be able to help myself.
It is not that the Trust in the Divine has landed me in the middle of a pile of money or tons of people demanding my services. Indeed, the truth is that I get by every month and that’s it. No matter what happens that month, I know I always have each and every need met and that’s pretty much it. Nothing extra. It does not mean Spirit demands I live a life of poverty or of lack; it simply means that my bills are paid and I have some little amount of money to treat myself with “something” so I don’t fall into neglecting myself. It is a lesson in its way, but in truth it is a gift to help me delve deeper into my spiritual commitment to myself and those I serve.
I treat myself with “something” – sometimes a new crystal, or a date night, or something else others may find completely frivolous. Let me tell you – when you don’t give yourself a treat every now and then Spirit will knock you on your back and make you accept something – usually from someone else and you then get to rack up another notch on the “not yet learned” lesson board.
I did that, for many years, and never realized why I was sick with this or that. Now, I pay attention to myself and when I feel run down or just mentally or emotionally exhausted I give myself the gift of time. Sometimes I just sit on the couch and read a favorite book of mine, or I hop in the tub and give myself a 2 hour bath with tons of essential oils and Epsom salts. Or, I drive by the crystal shop to see if anything there is waiting for me, calling out to me as I drive by, or I tell the spouse I need to go out for dinner instead of making it again.
No, I cannot be a spendthrift on my budget, but I am so grateful and thankful to Spirit at this point because I CAN work at home and take students and clients I know that Spirit has sent to me instead of taking everyone and anyone because I am in a state of fear. I can forego the Corporate Environment entirely at this point in my life, though I often tease my children and tell them they will have to support me because I will never work again in the ‘real world’ (don’t we all scare our kids that way?). Sometimes I tell them to save up because when I get older I am going to just travel wherever Spirit guides me, leaving my things in storage and live the life of a nomad – supported by my kids, of course.
They just look at each other with raised eye brows because I really am not much of a traveler. I just applied for my first passport ever and only because one of my guides insists I need it NOW. He has told me that I will travel soon, meaning in Spirit parlance sometime in a year or so, and when it happens I do want to be ready. After he told me to get one extra money came in this month so I am doing it. Next month would I have that money? I am not sure – Spirit truly provides what I need, but if I frittered the money for the passport away how long would I have to wait for more to come in?
I have also learned that when Spirit is telling me to do something and it looks like there is no way to do it financially or I have no idea how the logistics will work out, I have to just surrender and let go. For years I was told to stop working Corporate and focus on my Energy Work. Well, I was a single mom and had to have health insurance for myself and my kids. I could not see HOW I would ever be able to pay all my bills plus the expenses kids bring with them and not have a stroke worrying about it all.
When I finally did surrender to Spirit – with support of my now-spouse – I was amazed at how many people wondered why I had not focused on my Work sooner. I guess they were more clued in than my fear allowed me to be!
So the lesson to all this is – don’t allow fear to tell you what you “need” to do or “need” to make or “need to X” when Spirit allows you to do something. If you step back from fear and surrender to Trust, Faith, and the Divine and treat others like you would like to be treated (kindly, respectfully, honestly, transparently, and lovingly) then you will receive all that you deserve (and need) to continue on your path.
Look within and see the Love available to you; you don’t need to be afraid – you are never alone and you will always have your needs taken care of. Trust.
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